My Hero ❤

The song I posted below is the song I dedicated to any of my brothers if they passed away, because this is how they were, if you know them you'll know what I mean :) but when Jon was in the hospital bed in ICU I played this song, and set it on his stomach, he was brain dead, but when I played that song tears fell from his eyes, and I'm not the only one who saw it, I know he was with us in that room, letting us know that he will always be with us, forever. I love you Jon, today, tomorrow, and always.

When I got the news today
I didn't know what to say.
So I just hung up the phone.

I took a walk to clear my head,
This is where the walking led
Can't believe you're really gone
Don't feel like going home

So I'm gonna sit right here
On the edge of this pier
Watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer

Funny how the good ones go
Too soon, but the good Lord knows
The reasons why, I guess

Sometimes the greater plan
Is kinda hard to understand
Right now it don't make sense
I can't make it all make sense

So I'm gonna sit right here
On the edge of this pier
Watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer

So long my friend
Until we meet again
I'll remember you
And all the times that we used to...

... sit right here on the edge of this pier
And watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer
Drink a beer,
Drink a beer.
Yeah

Thoughts and Emotions

So this blog is about Jon, but I want to share my thoughts and feelings too for a few reasons. One, because Jon and I were very similar, we both suffer from depression and PTSD, for different reasons obviously. I have had anxiety my whole life, but stressful times bring it out pretty bad, when Jon passed away almost 3 months ago now, I have had extremely uncontrollable panic attacks, and my depression comes and goes. I would really love for people to share their thoughts with me on here, on what brings on their anxiety, or what helps them, or what makes them sad, and what makes that better, mostly because I know how much it helps me to talk to other people, and know that you aren't alone, I know I say that a lot, but it's one of the biggest things that's helped me, is meeting other people who struggle everyday with anxiety, or depression, it helps you to feel like you aren't crazy, and there's other people who are either going through it currently, or have gone through it one point in their life. 

Jon was a huge inspiration to me, and many others. He was more than a friend, he was a brother. Jon was a recon Marine. He was the first man in to sweep for mines, and explosives and make sure the path was safe for the rest of the Marines. He was haunted by flashbacks of things that no human being should have to see. As a result of that he had PTSD(Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Jon struggled everyday to adjust to civilian life. On January 22nd lost the fight with the demons he was fighting in his mind, and took his own life. As the hours and days pass since he passed away, I witnessed an amazing out pouring of love and support for my friend, my brother, who was loved by perhaps more people than he realized. I wanted to use this as a way to honor Jon, and help others see how many people actually really do care, without realizing it. I want people to also start showing others how much they care, before it's too late. Never forget to remind others how many you love and care for them.

After losing someone I love I decided that I wanted to have a place where people could share stories, get support, and reach out for help. I personally know what it is like to feel depressed, completely alone, and worthless and the point of this blog is to help people realize that they aren't alone, or worthless. Everybody has a purpose on this earth and I'm gonna try and help you see that :)